i don't know if anyone really reads this anymore, but oh well.

summer has been alright. been spending most of my time with aaron. no complaints there. i went to cocoa beach for a couple days... it sucked. & now my grandfather is in the hospital and its not so great. found out my cousin's wedding date is on the day i graduate, so thats gonna be interesting to see who picks what. but whatever.

thats my life. not too interesting

tomorrow is the last day of school.. and now that its here, im not really anticipating summer anymore. i just have this really strong feeling that something bad is going to happen. im not quite sure what im expecting to go wrong. i just have a feeling that someones gonna end up hurt by the end of the summer. and the past couple of years havent exactly been the best for me, so it honestly wouldnt surprise me. and what scares me the most, is that whenever i have a feeling like this.. its always right.

havent written in this thing in a while. im so into myspace and a lil facebook that im never on here! but to catch yall up, prom was a disaster. aaron and i are now (finally) together. my cousin finally came home from 18 months in iraq. dance is over. this is finals week. summer is almost here! im lookin forward to just working & spending tons of time with aaron =)

the drama has somewhat past. more like, i just gave up and nobody talks to me anymore. lol. but whatever. only one more year then we're outta high school and i dont have to see anybody i dont wanna see =)

do you ever wonder why certain things happen in life? why you got drunk that one night and had sex, or why you ditched this guy to go with that guy. why you had to get pregnant at the age of 17, and why you had to get kicked out of the house. or why you had to flip on that person at the wrong time.

i believe that everything happens for a reason. sometimes you cant help it. i know that we all wish we could go back to that certain day and change one decision that forever changed our lives, but unfortunately we cant. its reality. we all make bad decisions and we all screw up, its in our nature. but as human beings, we need other people to help us through the hard times.

if you see someone that you care about hurting, chances are that they need you. we cant just bail on each other because we dont agree with something that the other person did. sometimes you need to face the truth, and just get over the word "perfect" which does NOT exist.

unfortunately, this is something that i have had to come to terms with in the past few days... someone i really used to care about, making a horrible decision that has pemanently changed her life. ive had to realize theres more to life than this high school drama. and you cant let the little things get to you, otherwise youll never get to enjoy life while you can.

these are supposed to be the best years of our lives...

(here comes the deep stuff... but i suggest you read it)

i dont really understand. i dont understand why people feel the need to flip out over little things that arent even worth losing a friend over.

if you sit back and think, in 10 years its not going to matter who liked you, who thought you were pretty, how popular you were, or who talked shit about you. its not going to matter what clothes you wore, how your hair looked, or how many boyfriends you had. all thats going to matter is how much you learned in your high school years: knowledge and about yourself. people, this is the time where we find ourselves. ive found myself, i know who i am. do you know who you are? i doubt it. because you are too busy focusing on the little things that dont even matter!!!

every 60 seconds that you spend upset, is one minute of happiness that you will never get back